Tuesday, December 6, 2011

How long can the lady resist?

I out did myself, in my opinion, making it all the way to Saturday before home pregnancy testing. I forgot about testing first thing in the morning, so I peed without the test. Then a few minutes slipped past and I remembered I was going to test. For about 1 minute I thought, oh well, I'll just wait until tomorrow. Then for the next 10 minutes I couldn't stop thinking about it.

Once again I decided to stretch one of my rules, the don't test on anything other than first thing in the morning pee rule. I figure if I can squeeze out a little more pee right now, then it is still really first thing in the morning pee and will still contain the stronger hormone. Back to the loo I go, with my expensive in stream pee test. As I'm trying to squeeze out my last bit of morning pee I start to worry I'm not going to get enough pee on the stick to get a result. Damn. I will have wasted one of my tests by getting a tiny bit of wee on it. I resort to the old school cup collection method, so that the precious first thing in the morning pee wasn't just wasted.

With my cup balanced in the sink I dip the fancy instream test. The test screen starts to change immediately. I'm so pleased I went to pee capture mode, I would never have got enough pee on stick otherwise. I see the control line appearing straight away, quickly followed by a faint positive pregnancy test line. The faint line is becoming stronger. It is definitely there.

I can't believe how good this test was. The result came up so quickly, no need to discard and pull back out of the bin later. The expensive test was so worth it.

I tell Matt and I'm reasonably excited. He smiles, but doesn't seem too excited. It is too early. I want to be excited, like I was the first time we were pregnant. A little part of me is. The rest of me feels nervous.

On Sunday I started to think perhaps my test was wrong. Perhaps because I got a little bit a of pee on it, and then went for pee capture mode, maybe the test got confused and counted my hcg twice. I'm not even sure if this is possible, but I decide I must re-test with first morning pee on Monday.

On Monday I decide not to mess around with in flow and go straight to pee capture mode to prevent loss of precious early morning pee. I'm convinced the more expensive in flow tests are better, but then fail to use them that way (hmmmm...). The test quickly returns a positive result again. I'm reassured, I'm definitely pregnant.

I decide I have to speak to the fertility specialist as mid week last week my belly button started leaking out a small amount of yuk again. I confess to him that I've done a home pregnancy test and that now I'm worried about the return of the ooze somehow impacting the new pregnancy. We again discuss the colour, smell and amount of yuk coming from my belly button. He decides I should do my blood test on Tuesday so we know where I'm at (yay! Blood test brought forward 4 days!) and I should pick up a script for antibiotics. I don't need to take them right now, but hold onto the script in case the ooze picks up.

My blood test result today confirms I am pregnant. HCG was 178. That's fine for 4 weeks pregnant. Clearly it is way too early to tell anyone I'm pregnant, so shhhhhhh, it's a secret. Let's hope we make the 12/13 week hurdle and then I'll let the cat out the bag.

3 comments:

  1. Jeez Morgs, this is almost unbearable to read. My thoughts and prayers are with you - all three of you. xxx Aleta

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  2. Fingers and toes crossed!!!!!!

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  3. If there's two of them in there, it's a lot of fingers and toes! ;-)

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